Recently a few challenges have pressed me to ponder what I value. We had a baby while living in a pandemic, far away from family, and my husband has a busy CEO job. I found out some painful news about my job on the day my maternity leave ended: my coworkers were having a much harder time than I realized working with me since I'm married to the CEO. It was excruciating to learn that my job wasn't working for me or my coworkers, and I decided to move on. I liked my job, and liked working with my husband. We've both been sad about this new development. I've now spent 2 months simultaneously looking for a job and looking for childcare since we kept having childcare options fall through (partially because we're newbies at looking for it, partially because that's just how it is). I started having almost daily meltdowns of crying after any job interview or childcare interview, felt incredibly dizzy and nauseous in the evenings, and couldn't fall asleep for naps or